Saturday, March 19, 2011
A Woman of Noble Character Week #6
I have missed a few weeks. Got wrapped up in my own busyness. This week's challenge speaks to me greatly. I am a very emotional person and I am greatly controlled by my emotions. Most of the time, that is not always good. Working full time in the OR and being a full time mommy, does put a great strain on your emotional well being. That being said, it should not be an excuse for my mouth to have carte blanche to deal with stress.
I need daily forgiveness, if not hourly. God had his work cut out for him when he created me. This is such an area I struggle in. I am constantly praying for forgiveness and guidance. I am always seeking forgiveness from the ones I hurt, trying not to re-create those steps of hurtfulness again.
"But if not, then listen to me; be silent, and I will teach you wisdom." Job 33:33.
Tensions at work rise and words are unleashed that are unkind toward my coworkers. Four kids are being kids and mommy isn't having it, and the yelling ensues. My husband asks a question, and, well, that was the wrong question and words fly. Forgiveness needs to be asked for, and I need to have better control of my tongue and emotions.
We serve such an awesome God. I am so very flawed. Perfection is not found here. God knows this and still loves me. Wow.
I am a work in progress...